Why so........... HAPPY?? :P

STATUTORY WARNING: This behaviour should be restricted to only when you are just meeting your friends or you are seeing a new person or meeting someone for a short time. Please don't apply this to your family and closest friends. If you always do this with them then you will be forced onto a Shrink or into a mental facility; like many who believe the writer should already be in to protect the world and save humanity. : P

Sometimes people ask me... why are you always joking? Do I ever become serious? What are you so happy about??

If I come down to think about it, actually there is absolutely no reason for me to be happy. First of all I am completely sane, there are not any screw loose in my brains which most of my friends and almost all of my closest friends firmly believe ..: P...I have a job which demands a lot of responsibility; i work with some of the most expensive instruments and some very hazardous chemical which are both in their own way stressful; I am the Nitrogen Man!!(A private joke among my colleagues since one of my responsibilities is filling liquid Nitrogen (which has a boiling point of - 200 degree Celsius, so i guess its something to worry about too.: P) into the various instruments.;)); i have loads of friends but sometimes (like now) when they have their exams then I am a bit lonely too which is confounded by me not being in my home territory(Mental Facility :P). So there is always a lot stress upon me which is not actually that compatible with happiness.

But then again tell me one normal sane person who doesn’t have their own worries/problems. There are so many variables that can cause these problems and worries that it'll take days to even tabulate all of then completely. In short everyone has their own thing and I am not the only one in the world who is in stress.

So why would I like to make my dear friends even more serious and worried than they already are. Everybody nowadays is so serious and worried; then what's wrong in me trying to lessen the frowns with a few jokes? I see everywhere so many people moving around with their massively grave expressions (as if the whole world's burdens are solely upon their shoulders and no one else is taking notice of their efforts and sacrifices). I being an outside observer see all the successes that they have achieved and the many great things that they have some which I want to have and some which I can never have; and I feel so jealous and question to myself... what do they have to be so serious about? I seriously think people give more importance to their problems than the good things in their life. I believe everyone should sometime sit back and look at themselves and I am sure then they'll realise, how good life is and how lucky they are to have it.

Enough philosophy and roaming around, the truth is I always joke and will always joke around because I want all to always have a smile. Now it sounds quite cheesy and many of my cynical friends would be laughing at this as worthless and non profitable nonsense; but to them all I'll say.... Dude it’s alright!! No matter what you think, being happy and having fun is no rocket science!! You do your thing and I'll continue to do mine and we'll see who walks away with a smile!! ;)

So my message to all will be to meet every person with a smile so that at least for a few moments that they are with you; they can forget their worries and you can simply enjoy each others company. Joke as much as you can, no one wants to hear silly problems (unless they are drunk: P) it’s boring, just joke and have fun. Trust me it’s that simple!!

PS: Please readthe STATUTORY WARNING again to revert to your normal state.:D:P

Will or Opportunity, which one's your problem??

Many of my friends have exams approaching, so this is to lighten up your mood and also motivate you at the same time: D

After coming back from work at 6: 30 PM, today I thought it has already been 3 months of German Classes and I have not even opened the Audio CDs so finally I took out the Audio CD. I had tremendous determination; it seemed no one could stop me from completing the entire German Course in just a few hours. If only I was given the chance......

I suddenly realized that my DVD/CD player is not working. See my laptop is an ancient relic which I had bought 3 years back in Abu Dhabi and in due course of time so many atrocities had been committed on it (Atrocities means all sorts of gaming and scientific experimentation), that the fact that it even started each day left me the greatest achievements. You can imagine me pressing the start button and just praying to God almighty for just 1 more day. Also I don't yet have any backup hard drives so basically I’ll be screwed royally if my dear lappy dies, but the way it has been starting up every day since the past 6 months is simply one of the greatest unsung tales of legendary bravery that have been buried in the pages of history. But you see it’s like my trusted friend since the past 3 years. In-fact I have been with my lappy more than anyone else even including my parents. It has been with me to UAE, US and now Germany; it has seen all my ups and downs and helped me face all of these. SO should I leave it just because its old and broken?? No my friends i will use it until its last dying breath and then give him a Royal Cremation back where it was born. (Of course the fact that I am one of the laziest guy ever and the fact that I want to save money has nothing to do with it, so don't even think about it ...Ok!!)

So coming back to the main story again I have mustered up so much courage and finally decided to study and out of the blue my CD/DVD player stopped functioning. It felt like there was some conspiracy against me or maybe God maybe was giving me a sign that Son you have studied enough and its time to finally give it up and have fun ;P(I know this is complete bullshit since all I ever do is have fun ..lol.. but just because of the noble cause please bear with me and go with the flow it motivational later ;)).

So I am completely pissed off and I make a decision, no matter what I will study German today. So with terrible rage and motivation I first went out and bought a USB Stick (the cheapest of course from Saturn: D), then went to my friend's place; banged on his door (until it was half broken down and all his neighbors were staring at me..:-O). I first burned an Image of the Audio CDs and then saved the images in the Pen Drive. Next I stormed back home and luckily my lappy behaved(I think it realized that I am in a terrible mood and if it did anything wrong then the only place it was going to was out of the window :P) downloaded Daemon Tool Lite and created a virtual drive.

Finally I mounted the Images into the Virtual Drive and everything was all set for at last starting the German Course. But then I realized that I am too tired because of my efforts and just wanted to sleep. I mean what the heck!! first when I want to study then all this crap happens and then finally when everything is all set up then I don’t want to study?

Hence once again my attempt at regaining the favor of the Studies failed miserably, but i still hope I can win its favors back one day. Although the kind of way I have been treating her the past few years I doubt she would even want to look at my face let alone meet me ..:P . So friends learn from my mistakes both WILL and OPPORTUNITY are important for studying successfully. In most cases there is a lack of opportunity but if you have got the opportunity and if you don't muster up the will then it's a shame. Think about the many that don't have the opportunities, feel blessed and study hard for exams. I myself have also done it in past and its quite normal that we wish each other best of luck but I won't do it today. You have earned this opportunity based on your own merit, don't worry about luck, you are going to do very well, just give it your best shot. It's difficult to woo the favors of Studies especially if she is angry but the prize is immeasurable success so keep trying again and again. If you truly have given your best attempt then you don't have to worry about consequences and even if you by any chance fail, you can keep your head high and say that you gave it all.

The Years of Transition and Resolution

The Year of Transition - 2011

A year which started amidst darkness and extreme stress, this year will surely remain as a landmark in my life. During this period last year I was extremely stressed owing to the various application procedure for Graduate Studies and also the imminent gloom of my Final Master Presentation. I remember being in an extremely foul mood and it was not a nice time for many of my family and friends. There were a million documentation to be done , SoPs and Cover Letters to be written which had to be different for different Universities and on top of that I also had to complete my Final Master Thesis so you can imagine the reason for my anti-social mood.

But after every darkness come light; similarly after every difficult phase there is a phase where you can relax and have fun. The Year 2011 was a similar phase of transition. I was at last finally successfull in getting a great funded position in DKI/TU Darmstadt and also was able successfully defend my Masters. And although there were a few months spent in frustration due to the various redundant bureaucratic procedures in my attempt to get my Provisional Degree;still this was only a minor setback and only added a temporary setback to my overall happiness.

Then came the time of celebrations and time of new beginnings. I was extremely lucky in having some excellent friends and colleagues and the best bosses;and together they all ensured that I settle down smoothly in my new work place. Soon my colleagues integrated me into their group and even work became fun. In fact I liked waking up every morning and going to the office at 8: 30-9 AM and working hard until 5-6 PM. This was perhaps the most vital gain - the knowledge of excellent work ethics, Respect and Integrity; and Pride in working Hard.

But it was not over yet, the year ending was also interesting, during my German Courses I made some even more interesting acquaintances which added some extra flavour. I made some excellent friends and I did what I went to the German Class for - have a good time. You see after 8 hours of office I was not in the state of learning anything so I just tried my best to have some light moments. But in the process I also know some German which was actually a bonus for me and an achievement for our Teacher and my dear classmates.

And the Final weeks were even more rocking. Thanks to the invitation from my colleague, Paul I was able to celebrate Christmas with him and his family in the traditional way and I will always thank him for it. I baked my first cake so it was a learning experience too. I had a great time and they were all so kind and wonderful to me; I will always pray that they have a great life and hopefully next year I can be with my family too. If Christmas was all about goodness with the good guy Paul then New Year Celebrations was all about evil with the bad guy Tobias. Thanx to him and his friends it was an unforgettable experience. Learning how to bake our own Pizz with various toppings of our choice, bursting firecrackers on the bridge over Rhine River and drinking all night; it was a night I wish I could remember completely. For our parts we welcomed the New Year with open arms; hope it treats us the same.

The Year of Resolution - 2012

However I also made many mistakes and did some stupid idiotic things owing to my inexperience during the last year. Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I had not made those mistakes, maybe I could have had something special. But i guess bygones are bygones and the only thing I can do is look ahead try to learn from my mistakes and improve. so this new year I have resolved to try my best to be the best. I am going to give my all to my work and regain the my focus again. There are many habits I am not proud and I believe its high time I try to get rid of them. I hope I am successful in my efforts because I know I can be a better person. So this year is all about Hard work and Good efforts so that I can make all of my family, friends and you proud to have met me.

A Very Happy New Year 2012 to all of You!!